Love is love, we can all associate it with positive things until we are being hurt and start looking at things differently. Some go to an extend of thinking its them that is wrong or that its them that was doing something wrong. This is not usually the case all the time but it can also be a place to look at, as you check yourself and try to be better.
You are a strong woman to even share this.
We would recommend to heal first, take time for yourself and rediscover yourself.
Try to love yourself first, it will only attract the right love.
Rediscovering yourself is usually a tough process but on the bright side, you learn and grow about yourself. Your strength, weakness, your values among other virtues you uphold. Let us know if you would like us to add you on the private page to learn and share more.
NOTE: Value attracts value, and value comes from knowing yourself.
Thanks alot for ur advise it's so encouraging. Am interested u can add me anywhere am ready to share everything have passed through all the way and experience in love life. Thanks